I know I’ve been absent for a few weeks. Just as I was coming out of the previous funk, I got overwhelmed by recent events – especially the shootings by police and of police in the U.S. I wanted to write my thoughts about the shootings, but I didn’t want to write out of pure emotion as so many did so I started looking up statistics. That was the wrong thing to do as I ended up getting so flooded with information my mind seemed to freeze, and ultimately i did nothing, even the flash fiction. I also avoided news stories on TV and online for a week because i wasn’t in a place to bear hearing any more stories about shootings, bombings, and mass killings. If I ever find myself in that situation again, I hope I remember to just sit down and start writing, knowing that my thoughts will sort themselves out as I write.
Currently, I’m trying to catch up on all the email notices of posts that I just let slide by during that time. It helped that I got a big push in the form of someone (you know who you are) who contacted me and begged me to come back. This made me really stop and think about what is happening in my life and how I have (or have not) been reacting to events.
Things are happening in my life beyond my control, but I realize now that it has not helped me to just lay around having a pity party (which I had previously denied doing), surfing the internet or watching TV. It’s frustrating not having transportation so I can go mall walking and it’s too hot outside to walk. So I decided on another form of mental therapy – crochet.
I haven’t crocheted in more than 20 years. I used to crochet a lot, mostly afghans, but my skin got hypersensitive to the yarn dragging across my skin so I quit. It was actually a sister-in-law’s newly discovered prowess at crocheting that got me interested again. Since we just had one baby join the family and another is on the way, I have a reason to crochet something. Which means, after much practice to get my tension and gauge correct, my first two projects are baby blankets. When I finish my first one, I’ll post a picture.
I think my next projects will be beanies for preemies and lapghans for the nursing home.
In the meantime, thanks to all of my followers and those who have liked my posts, for staying with me and for being my blogging friends. I promise to make a more concerted effort to not drop off the map again.
Now, back to my crochet project.